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"You're not a victim of anything unless you make yourself"....says the nun. That's not true in my situation. Sorry. I'm not making myself anything. I didn't choose to die. I didn't want my soul to go away. It's just the way it is. I don't even think I complain that much. I am torn. I don't want to break peoples hearts or let people down, but I can NOT exist this way. I'm just too....deflated. Sometimes, I feel OK. But when I remember who I was....my heart sinks all the way down to my toes.


Life, without passion, curiosity, and meaning can't be defined as a life at all.
I have to find it, or die.